“…are walking on railroad tracks… I better go, too.” ~Pokemon Red/Blue
What a crazy… span of time it has been. I’m not gonna go into all the excuses on why I haven’t been posting again, so let’s cut right to the chase: This week I’m starting as KTXS’ Morning News Producer! This has been the product of a long, difficult job search. Let this be a lesson that no matter how qualified you think you may be, any kind of job hunting is hard in this economy. That said, I can’t wait to get started! I’m not sure what to expect. The word “producer” can mean anything from “man who funds a project” to something way more hands on. But that’s all part of the fun, right?
It’s a transition to be sure. Starting at KTXS means my time at KACU has come to a close. It finally sank in on the last hour of my shift today, as I looked around my all too familiar workspace.
These monitors, music card bins, soundboard and other equipment in this and the adjoining rooms were my life for the past four years. Coming to the realization that this ingrained routine was ending was a little overwhelming to say the least. I mean, I know I’ll come back and visit. I’m not leaving town or anything. But it’s still major.
It brings to mind another major change in my life. As you may know, I used to live in Chalmette, Louisiana, just a stone’s throw from New Orleans. Last week was the 8-year anniversary of Hurricane Katrina’s landfall on the Louisiana coast. And in a very similar way, my life changed forever, in an even more abrupt fashion. I gave KACU a two weeks notice, which is a lot more than this natural disaster gave me.
I’ve found this blog post articulates my thought’s pretty well on the subject, but I’ll give you my quick rundown on how I feel…
Imagine suddenly becoming far removed from all your friends, family, and familiar settings. I was just starting my sophomore year of high school, a few big tests I was worrying about were coming up, and I was planning on asking out the captain of the cheerleading squad who was dropping some rather obvious hints. In an instant, however, all this changed. The last time I saw many of these people in person, (and let’s keep in mind that Facebook was not quite out yet) was at the football game two nights before. They, and the venue I saw them in, were gone in a blink.
I’ve gotten over it for the most part. My family found a new home in Abilene. We went to new schools, and I just graduated last December at a college that 8 years ago I would’ve never dreamed of going to. Most years the anniversary will pass, I’ll acknowledge it, and move on. But something about this year weighed a bit more heavily on me, and I think it had something to do with the fact that I was entering another period of major change.
This job, as I’m slowly finding out, is polar opposite in many respects to what I was doing at KACU. The chief similarity is that it’s in the broadcast news field. I’m using the skills I’ve honed over the course of my career to this point, but in very different ways. Going from PM public radio to AM commercial television is as daunting as it sounds. The writing style is different, the producing style is different, and my sleep schedule is very different! (As I’m writing this I’ve begun the transition, so if this feels incredibly ramblesome… there’s a reason)
But in the end, I’m welcoming this change. I find as soon as I accept that the end to one beginning is coming to pass, I can more readily open to the new one. There’s always gonna be things I’ll miss about the previous chapter as I turn to the new one, but it’s something that must eventually be accepted.
So here we are. The new me starts today, and to tell you the truth, I couldn’t be more excited! There’s loads of uncertainty, but that’s all part of the fun, right?